"“Help Me Mother Find My Way” is a discovery about myself, my self worth. My mother has helped me so much, she has provided me a job (I have worked for her for 8 years), and for many years I lived with her, and has helped me so much with my daughter. Everything I had was because of my mother. It has been so easy for me having her support, but I had a developed a belief that I could not achieve anything without her, that I could not do anything on my own. I looked up to her so much, Knowing that at my age she was so much more independent and without the help of her mother like she helped me. Through this song writing I realized that my unhappiness was coming from not feeling proud of what I have achieved because I felt like I couldn’t do anything on my own or stand on my own two feet. I felt inadequate, helpless and my self esteem was low. Ironically the help of my mother was making me resentful of her. I now know what I need to do for my happiness and Love Myself. To Love my self is to be proud of myself, and two be proud of myself I have to prove to myself I can stand on my own two feet."

"Help Me Mother Find My Way" By Gabriela

Thank you Mom for everything
For everything you’ve done.

My job, my home, my birth, your care, 
And everything I’ve lived.

For all the times you’re there for me,
And every time you’ve helped.

But every time that I receive,
My heart is split in two.

One part of me is grateful,
And wants to feel your love.

Another part is full of debt,
A debt that’s growing more.

I owe you more and ever more,
With every single thing.

My job, my home, my daughter’s life,
And oh so much else.

To ask for help is hard for me,
With all the things attached.

And then the debt is just so huge
That I just can’t say no
To anything you ask of me
To anything at all.

I don’t feel that i can trust you,
Your stories always change.

I always hope, I hope for change,
But things remain the same.

I love you oh, so much but know,
That I could love you more.

If I was not attached to you,
With all those binding cords.

I accept your help, and ask at time,
But something isn't right.

The feelings then, inside my heart,
Are splitting me apart.

The gratitude, the guilt and shame,
The burden and mistrust.

The war just rages on day and night, 
They fight and fight until I close inside

I love you, oh so much, but know
That I could love you more.

If I was not attached to you,
With all those binding cords.

For half the time I love you so,
The rest I cannot stand
Your presence, and the debt I owe
Has gotten out of hand.

I see myself living a life
Of an eternal debt,

Of nursing you until I’m gray,
And living with regret.

To never have a life of mine,
And never truly shine

I need to fly away from you,
As far as I can go.

Not for not loving you,
But loving you too much.

I cannot tell my love from hate,
They both hurt just the same.

I want to love you fully without
Any restraint.

I need to feel my life is free
Of duty, guilt, and shame.

That i can stand on my two feet,
And earn my own way.

I need to fly, fly away,
So that my heart is clear.

To love you unconditionally
And know that you love me.

So now I ask for once with pride
Your help to be set free.

I want your help to cut the cords
That have till now bound me.

I need your help to start a life
For Mia and for me.

San Diego calls, it’s not too far,
For us to see and feel
Each other many times a year,
And stay a family.

I want your help to go and not your Help to stay,
And love you all the way.

I’m a mother too and i would like to say
That I would do the same.

To let my Mia fly away,
And find her own way.

Hands on my heart I beg you,
Down on my knees I beg you.

Don’t take this wrong please I pray

Hands on my heart I beg you,
Down on my knees I beg you.

Look at me mom feel my pain,
Help to get me on my train.

Help me dream a life of mine,
Where you visit all the time.

And we will visit you as well,
Times to share and times to tell.

Hands on my heart I beg you,
Down on my knees I beg you.

Help me mother find my way.